For the Love of Mondays

How is it that I can see so much pain?

Death, destruction, abuse, anger

And yet still love You?

How is it that Your majesty outweighs all negativity

How Your love transcends all?

My spirit soars as I trudge through mud

Trials that once brought grief now bring joy.

How wonderful.

I want to walk with You by the water

Lightly brushing the grass with my fingertips

Sand curling between the toes

The trinkle of water—beauty

How I long for this solitude, this solace with You

Day in, day out

Dancing is a state of the heart

Joy

*  *  *

I constantly fall to attack

And yet You wait patiently, teaching me

With love

I stumble daily, by the hour, by the minute

Weighing me down, my failures

Striving for perfection is a lost cause

And yet You wait patiently, teaching me

With love

*  *  *

I see now

I see now

Blind like Saul, I’ve staggered about

Lost, hopeless, constantly confused

“Follow me,” You say.

“But why?” Is my answer.

“I know better; I know the way.”

Child…

I see now

Your love is infinite

It is everlasting

I see You now

Pursuing me, daily

Little love letters in the wind and all around

I jump for joy, tears streaming down my face

I am free

I am free

I AM FREE

*  *  *

I will fight for you daily

Irresistibly radical for You

For love

I will fight for you in the cities,

In the jails, in the poverty-stricken houses

I will fight for you in the middle of the abuse and the death and the violence

I will fight for you in the crack addictions and the prostitution

In the brokenness, Your light will shine.

Justice.

Justice.

The beautiful justice of Love.

My soul weeps in absolute awe

In absolute awe of everything

Everywhere I look there is terrible darkness

But finally

For the first time,

I truly see darkness, no longer in naïve optimism

But because of that horrid darkness,

I’ve found Light.